Held...

I love this song....



Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would Take a child from his mother while she prays I
s appalling.

Who told us we’d be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We’re asking why this happens To us who have died to live?
It’s unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred NUMB our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow. (

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we’d be held.

Christmas Eve

Good morning to all! I hope everyone is having a wonderful Christmas Eve! It is hard to believe that Christmas is almost here....Within a day...it seems like yesterday it was summer time and school was just starting...I guess it is a sign that I'm getting old since time is flying by now...I can remember when I was little Christmas never seemed to get here. But now it is quite the opposite. Sign of old age? I would have some younger friends that would agree with me there. :)

This Christmas is going to be different. My sister, brother-in-law, and nephew aren't coming to my parents house until Monday...which means the "Thompson" side of the family isn't having their Christmas until Monday lunch....it used to always be on Christmas! This year Blake, Anna Katherine (Blake's g/f), Ginny, Justin, and I can't watch "A Christmas Story" while we eat. It won't be on tv on Monday :( So I guess I am stuck watching the 24 hour marathon by myself. Sadness. But I am thankful that we are all going to be together again. In the words of my pastor..."It won't always be like this." And this year I'm thankful that we are all going to be together even if it is a day after Christmas. My mom's side of the family is having their get-together on New Year's Day! I'm excited about that one. Lots of my cousins will be there...so we will have a good time! Then it is back to cajunville for me. School resumes on the 3rd and I haven't done any of my school work yet....which is where you will find me this afternoon....working on school "crap" as I like to refer to it...but it must be done. They just can't come back and not do anything especially when we have midterms coming up! Oh well! Even though it is Christmas life still continues!

As I am sitting here typing and rambling I remember last Christmas Eve...this time last year I was helping to pass out presents to homeless people in Monroe in the below freezing weather....and this year I'm sitting in my parent's house all nice and warm typing on a computer! Changes.

I am wondering what 2006 will bring....I pray that it will bring happiness and peace and most importantly answers to some questions I've had lately....I also pray that it will bring even more changes. 2005 has definitely been an interesting year...one that I don't think I will ever be able to forget no matter how hard I try! But I have to remember Romans 8:28..."For ALL things work together for the GOOD of those who LOVE God." That verse has given me strength--just to know that God is in control and everything will eventually work out even if it doesn't feel that way right now...okay enough of my ramblings! I pray that everyone have a very merry Christmas and a wonderful New Years!

NC here I come!

Just going to let you know that I purchased my tickets for the trip tonight....I leave Monroe on Feb. 17th at 4:25 p.m. and arrive in Durham at 9:12 p.m. ...I have a lay-over in Memphis then on Monday, I leave Durham at 12:05 p.m. and arrive "home" at 3:30 p.m.

Ashely and Melissa--let me know about your flights whenever you book them!

Merry Christmas!

Sweet Home Alabama....

I'm finally back in Alabama for a few weeks! I'm so excited! Yesterday, I met up with Melissa, Mandy, Chad, and Ashley and we had a great time. It has been so long since we were all together! It was a much needed time. Thanks ya'll! I love you! and Melissa if I decide to move back to Alabama I'll give you a call!

Today my parents and I are going to Tupelo, Miss to finish up some Christmas shopping...pray for us :( !

My kids did an AWESOME job at their Christmas program! I was so excited and I ended up with 50 roses! I was in tears!

Have a great week!!

"Hark how the bells, sweet silver bells...."

That time is upon us! Today I had a 10-2 practice with Living Word--my vocal group at school--it went really well...we really were able to accomplish a lot. We have 3 more practices until our 1st performance ever!!!!! Please pray for us...Wednesday night we are singing at a church in town. Then Thursday night is our school's performance....needless to say...I'm STRESSING!! majorly! Of course...ya'll know me...that is nothing new.

I hope everyone is having a great month of December...it is hard to believe we are once again celebrating Christmas...it literally seems like yesterday school was starting. My how times flies...it is hard to believe that it has been 2 years if not longer since I've seen some of you! I'm not really going to comment on that because I'll only end up getting mad. My how thinsgs have changed since the beginning of the year and since this time last year...some changes for the good some...well...for the bad...but you have to roll with the punches and remember that God is in control....I've been clinging to Proverbs 3:4-5 so much lately...it is either cling to God or cry constantly and give up....I've chosen to cling to God but sometimes the tears still fall....He never said life was going to be easy...He just said to trust me.

Here's a memory...Today I wore my pageant shirt under my NY sweat shirt to practice. I got hot so I took my sweat shirt off and my kids laughed when they saw my "School House Rock" shirt...they were all like "Mrs. Buffington...school house rock?" My response was heck yes! This shirt makes me smile...it brings back soooooo many memories....but I'm so thankful!!!

Thank you to all who are a part of those memories! I love you all!!

Right Kind of Wrong...

Wow...that song is old...but I love it...still love the movie as well. That is what I feel like right now...some people are just the "right kind of wrong"--well maybe just one person in particular. I'm sure most of you are wondering what she is talking about. Well...it is a little too complicated to type in some ways in other ways not but very personal.

I'm so glad it is the weekend. The leaves here at the house need to be raked but...I've want to get my Christmas decorations up so I think I'm going to leave the leaves where they aren't...they're not going anyway and get Christmas decorations up first then if I have time rake. :)

I love the holiday season; however, I'm afraid that we may get so caught up in the business of the season that we really forget why we celebrate Christmas in the first place. Where would we be without God's gift that He gave us...have you ever really thought about that. What would we have to look forward to? We need to be thankful that God sent His Son to die on the cross for our sins and make sure that we give we are supposed to give back to God. I hope everyone's holiday season is wonderful!! Take time to truly give God praise for what He has done!!